Over Easter, we lost our 6th pregnancy at 9.5 wks. The roller coaster
that started us off on was not one we had planned. When I went back for
our follow up with the OB, everything was fine. But 2 wks and still I
had no cycle, so we went back and it felt like we were dropped off a
cliff. The blood test showed I was pregnant but the doctor seemed to
think it was chemical. They told me to come back in two weeks and we'd
have a sono and we did but all we could see was a sac,
an empty sac. The OB still thought probably chemical b/c nothing lined
up to be otherwise. But still, he wanted to wait two more weeks before
he intervened. So two wks later, we went back fully expecting to see
an empty sac, only they found an baby that only measured six wks, not
the eight they expected. Still, the doctor said to keep things
realistic, the baby measured up to two wks behind where it should
according to all the data we had.
So 10 days later we went back, and there was a heartbeat and the baby measured 8.5 wks...a full wk bigger than it should have. So the doc said, sometimes science can't figure it out...let's see again in a couple of wks. All this time, I've had blood draws out the wahzoo - I'm on progesterone which makes the nausea worse...so I'm on nausea meds twice the normal dose to keep functioning and still no knowing what to expect. We went back two wks later and baby measured 10 wks! Right where baby should be if they went back original data and we surpassed the 9.5 wk mark where I had lost my other two babies. Keith and I breathed a sigh and thought maybe just maybe we can see God's plan now.
That was on a Thursday. The following Monday night we were at Ava's district softball tournament in Quitman riding back to the hotel and a balloon popped and there was blood. Lots of blood. And I knew that was it...we were done. After 2 hrs at Quitman ER, an ambulance ride, lots of tears, and even more prayers they found a very active, healthy baby on the ultrasound...but told us there's a 50/50 chance we'd still miscarry. I continued to bleed for the next five weeks. But each wk, the baby has grown and they eventually found the hemorrhage and it has gotten smaller.
So, today at 16.5 wks, after lots of nerves and prayers...we told our kids we were having another baby. A baby girl to be exact, she's due to arrive in January. We are excited, scared and still protecting our hearts a bit. But the joy and excitement on the kids faces makes the tears and fears of the unknown worth it. I can't say we planned four, but I can say God did. And He has always had a plan for our family...what's one more strong willed child in our household?! If you've made it this far, thank you and we won't turn down any extra prayers if you wish to send some our way.
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